Questions

How do you feel when your children are hurting,
When they raise their voices to you with their cries?
How do you feel when they feel so deserted,
When you sit on high, just watching them die?

How do you feel when you have the power,
to calm their fears and remove all their pain
How do you watch them, hour after hour
Struggling to overcome, and start living again?

Why do you torture the one's in your service?
Who decides if they've suffered enough??
Is this how you thank them, and say they deserve this?
Is this how you show your invisible love?

How do you feel when the pain's so tremendous?
We've heeded your word and surrendered our all.
Exhausted with weeping you still donot hear us!
We doubt that you ever existed at all.

What is the purpose of endless suffering?
Our loved one's are dying, our children in pain!
When hours of praying and pleading and offering,
We wonder if we're slowly going insane!

Who are the one's that claim to adore you?
They sing in your churches of your endless love.
But who or what would they run and cling to,
If you refuse to respond from above?

To them God is good, and faithful and loyal
They've never had trials with terrible cost.
But what if the reaper should claim all their toil?
Abandoned by God when all hope is lost?

When I was a child I wanted to know you,
You were the Father I longed to adore
I never suspected that you would not come through,
For me, when I could not take anymore!

I searched for you in the midst of great sorrow
of anguish and pain and confusion of mind
I could not fathom how I'd face tomorrow,
when darkness and lies caused me to go blind!

The tempter is winning! I need you to save me!
I cannot hold on the billows are high!
I'm angry and frightened, confused and I need you
Oh Jesus please save me, or I'll surely die!
copyright by lori hollaway October 2003